Day by day you slipped into my mind until you made a home

You and I lie there together intertwined and I feel safe

it’s quite the beautiful fabrication

A faceless man holding me, it almost feels real

Then I come to, alone in my room

Missing a person that never really existed

Before I met you I was wound up so tight

I never unfolded for anyone the way I did for you that night

I ache for your soul

I ache for mind

I ache for you body

And your cells to mix with mine

I want you in the most precious way

But it’s primal

So intoxicated with desire

let’s intertwine

Under dark skies and moonlight

Let’s intertwine

Warm flesh and sweat

I never felt so alive

All I ever wanted was safety

To be seen

To be touched

To be felt

Like I really existed

What does it feel like to be saturated

To be immersed and covered completely

Away from the outside world

Your warmth keeping my safe

Making me feel like I always belonged

I’m hopeful

I’m jaded

Im bright

I’m faded

I’m clothed

I’m naked

I hesitate

I dive right in

Intoxicated

with a sober mind

I cant want you

But I can’t stop thinking about you

Baby, I’m just a contradiction

I can’t bare to look you in the eyes

Trying so hard to conceal what’s on mind

Then you touch me and all the doubt fades away

Is this heaven or hell

Do the two even really exist

Oblivion and bliss now start to mix

Reality shift

I’m hopeful

I’m jaded

Im bright

I’m faded

I’m clothed

I’m naked

I hesitate

I dive right in

It’s lonely at the bottom

It’s lonely in the middle

Sick of always playing second fiddle to these intrusive thoughts That belittle me

They seep into me

Play tricks on me

Before I know it I’m pulling away from the world again- stuck in my head

Fool me into getting into bed with death

Make me believe he can take this misery away from me

Set me free with the end

A Walk Into The Universe

The urge to walk into the darkness at an ungodly hour has always been apart of me.

To walk into blackness swallowing me- knowing most of the world is tucked into their dreams or their reality tv has always been so comforting.

Knowing the only eyes on me have to be the eyes of god, or the stars and the moon above looking down on me- I believe that they are the same thing.

The universe floods into me filling my open wounds making me feel whole again.

Only at this ungodly hour do I feel like me as I walk into infinity.

This dark thing lives inside of me

Foreign to everyone I know

I want to touch hell

So I can summon who I truly am

My last night

I long to be scattered among the night sky entangled with star dust

Engulfed in nothingness

I am oblivion

Never to be known

Never to be known for who I was

The purest form of love

Never to change a thing

The universe absorbs me exactly as I am

God, drugs and science

I want your body and I want your mind

I want to consume you one cell at a time

I’ll take it slow

Pick you apart

Take a deep breath and inhale me

I’ll be your god

Confess all of your sins

I’ll forgive you if you’re honest

I’ll make you forget all your problems

I am your heroin

Main line it and die slow

Let the world behind you drift away now

My thoughts have been loosening my grip again.

Sometimes it scares me how easily I could slip away from this world.