Monthly Archives: May 2017
Saying what’s on my mind has always been difficult for me. Everyday, practically ever second I filter myself. Maybe because people always assumed I was a sweet girl, so I felt I had to live up to that expectation. But the thing is, I’m not a sweet girl. I’m fucking chaos.
I HATE that I’ve always let the opinions of others effect the way I feel about myself.
My whole life- in my own head, I’ve been tortured; And I can’t live another day like this.
I can’t physically or mentally bare the burden of worrying whether or not another person loves me. I have to work on loving myself or I’m not going to make it.
I just have to put this out in the world. And I don’t know if anyone will ever read this but I just have to know that I finally had the courage to truly put out into the world what I was thinking, although I’m terrified that people will label me weak, crazy, or what ever unflattering things I can think of. I just had to say it.
I’m a tortured fucking person and I want to change.